Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Missing home

My dear cousin Amy and I were talking a couple of weeks ago. She said something profound, which is actually normal for her. We were talking about traveling--leaving and coming home. She said that everyone needs to leave home because unless we leave home, we can never miss home.

Well, I am far from home, and I miss home.

Although the feeling of missing home isn't alway pleasant, I will accept the pain. It's nice to know I have a home, a place where I am loved. When I remember where I come from, I can stand a little more confidently here in a place where I feel out of control. There is nothing familiar here even though I am becoming very much accustomed to the sights, smells, and feelings of this city.

I miss family and friends. I miss the season we are in. I missed the fall and Thanksgiving. I miss the all the lights and trees and smells of Christmas that I know are in the air at home. I miss the feel of Christmas. Ooh, what I wouldn't give for some Christmas baking!

So, happy December. Celebrate home well this Christmas season--if for no one else but me.

3 comments:

  1. will do... it is hard... I feel it just being in the same country but 1000's of miles from my family. It's hard to grow up. I told mom and dad that I just want to be a kid again or my family dog... where all I have to do is lay in the middle of the living room getting in everyone's way and not even know about it as I sleep a day away, greet my dad at the door with a sloppy wet kiss and a wagging tail...... or just to not have a care in the world except if I'm going to finish those darn veggies mom put on my plate, or if I'm going to get the doll I want for Christmas... etc etc... growing up is hard. But know Ms. Sheila that you are in the middle of the hand of God... on the front lines with a mighty savior standing behind you daring any force to come against you. Stand strong and persevere... but at the same time... work through those longings for home... it shows how faithful God has been to us that we have a home to miss and a loving family who cares about us:) Much Much love to you dear friend!

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  2. Oh dear sister. I love you so much, and I was just thinking how this season must be hard for you. You are loved and remembered and do you think a gingerbread house would make it international post? :)

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